So this is embarrassing

Hey All,
You know when you neglect to do something, sometimes that neglected thing becomes practically all you can think about?  And sometimes even though anxiety is overwhelming you about the thing you haven't done you deliberately continue not doing it.  Well, that is what this blog has been for me for the last nine months.  I know I said I would talk about getting laid off and all the changes that brought to my life, but honestly it is an old story at this point and if you don't already know what happened then you probably don't need to.

What I will say is last October I celebrated my birthday at Lauren's cottage. I was in a perfect place, (for what that is worth) in my life.  Happy, in love, working for a great company and preparing to take the next step towards settling in Canada, becoming a Permanent Resident.  I know I was happy because while we were up at Stoney Lake, in a moment of solitude, I thought to myself,

"Enjoy this, it wont last."

Now I wasn't being morbid.  I was simply acknowledging the evolving nature of life.  And I'm glad I did.  Because as many of those joys crashed around me - the job, Permanent Residency and my general sense of stability, I've stayed afloat.  I've tried to accept the changes and play a role in influencing them joyfully.  And guess what, it's working.

But, for a while now that crisis mode has dampened my creativity here on the Property.  It's a shame, but I just felt false blogging about the cultural goings-on outside me, when there was such a strong emotional storm happening on the inside.  Nor did I know how to gracefully post about my disappointments and fears.  Nobody wants to read that for long.  Am I right? Well, listen, I am really sorry about it, and I am gonna get back to it because  LIFE IS STILL AWESOME  and there are a lot of adventures ahead.  I don't want you to miss any of them so I am gonna keep you better informed.  And who knows maybe I will let you peak behind the curtain of the last nine months it's been pretty epic.